12.01.2011
a little off the edge. posted at 12/01/2011 05:48:00 PM
Right now I'm thinking maybe if I scour his facebook friendslist I'm sure to see old hook-ups who still flirt with him. It would be so easy to make a hitlist--I've got money, resources, a bit of political backing, I can be clever and let's face it--not the first time I'd be arrested. And I know how to make a silencer. So now I'm putting it out here so I don't have to think about it because that thought scares me. I might just do it if I snap, and that wouldn't be a good thing.
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Anyway, my real plan right now is to get a better looking body because I've begun to get flabby what with eating three regular meals a day ever since I got together with my partner. So I have to exercise more--plus research shows it produces more dopamine, adrenaline/other feel-good chemicals in the brain. So there. Plus I feel that the boyfriend is getting less and less interested in sex (well, in a way I mean not that interested in sex anymore) and I have a feeling it's because all those other perfect-looking single people are enticing him or something.
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God now that I think about it, I'm too obsessed with my boyfriend. That's the word, obsessed. The psych was right--I shouldn't be relying on him, shouldn't be placing even a part of the burden on him. I hope I don't get disappointed though.
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